Gangsta lean

Aislinn got this little potted plant from a friend at Girls Scouts when they were working on their friendship badge. We have no idea what it is, and really doubted it would grow, but yesterday it surprised us with some sprouts. I put it by the window and in just 24 hours they grew even more, with a noticable lean toward the sun. I thought it was pretty neat.

I haven't taken many pictures lately and I miss it sometimes. Nothing has struck my fancy until today.

I think I am getting a summer cold. Even though the temperature in the house has been a consistent 75, I've been sweating non stop. My throat has been scratchy, and I have a small cough, and I hocked a green loogie this morning. Also yesterday I slept ALL day, as in 9 am to 5 pm. EIGHT HOURS on the couch with just a few wakings. Lucky for Jonny Tony came home ridiculously early. I didn't eat, I didn't drink, I didn't do jack except sleep as if it were my job. I did it well yesterday.

Of course when I woke up, the house was a mess. I had kind of picked up before I laid down on the couch. I even purged the toy box. I woke up and it was terrible. I was kind of mad at Tony about it. I mean, come on. If you see me sleeping on the couch for 8 hours straight, you gotta figure something is not right. But, nooo Tony took it as an opportunity to do nothing at all, because hey if I'm not doing anything, why should he?

Today is the last day of school. I can't believe that Aisy will be in the 3rd grade next year! It's just mind blowing. Wanna know what else is mind blowing? Every night when she goes to bed, she READS A BOOK TO HERSELF. A chapter book! She reads some here and there, and gets through it in a few days. I am so proud of her.

Her Girl Scout thing went well. She got 3 try it patches, and a bunch of fun patches for the back of her vest. She started late, so she didn't get as many as the other girls. We can work on them at home this summer though, which will be fun. There was one girl there that was bridging from Brownies to Juniors and she had done so with honors! Which means she earned all 62 try it patches! That's a lot of work. We're not going to do that of course. I figured one a week would be good, it will give us a goal for the week, and keep her busy. I don't want to push her though. She has picked her first one, so we'll work on that one next week. It has something to do with puppets or something. She has to make different kinds of puppets. She went to get a sock to get started last night, but sock puppets wasn't one of the options, so she left the sock on the table while we looked. In the background as Aislinn, Tony and I were talking I could hear Jonny like screaming. Not in a hurt way, just in a having fun kid way. Finally it registered that he was saying "Whatcha reading?" in a different voice. I look over and he was ducked down, with a dirty sock on his hand (I guess Aislinn got one out of the dirty clothes pile) and the sock was asking us over and over "Whatcha reading" We were cracking up, but we wouldn't answer, and the sock kept getting more and more insistent on learning what we were reading. We were dying!! Finally he gave up, and when he stood up he saw us laughing. I said "Jonny you have a dirty sock on your hand" and he said "No it's not" and I told him to smell it, and he did and he said "EW yucky". I am telling you, that kid is a crack up. I can't wait until we go back home in August, because I think people will be surprised to how different he is. He was so shy when we left. He still is shy, but once he gets comfortable, he starts goofing around and it's so funny. He cracks people up everywhere we go.

I love my kids.

Hot cup of screaming kid, it's what's for breakfast

Aislinn just walked out of here, screaming and crying. She was supposed to be ungrounded today, but managed to get grounded again. What did my darling, angel faced girl do? Just be herself.

Well, that's unfair to say, but not in a way. I don't know. I'm just too tired to think this morning. I decided to wash her shoes last night, and when I put them in the dryer, they pushed the dryer door open in the middle of the night, and when we woke up they were still damp. Of course Aislinn could NOT find her clogs, so this started the tears. Which I can understand, but really if she was A. a normal person, she would have more than TWO pairs of shoes and B. if she insists on being a person with only two pairs of shoes, then she needs to take care of both pair. She was crying "I ALWAYS HAVE TO WEAR WET SHOES" because you know I dip her shoes in the toilet EVERY MORNING just to piss her off.

The grounding didn't come though until she got argumentative. I could have taken the crying and total despair over having to go to school in damp shoes. Come on, even I, heartless mom of the world, can realize that this would wholy suck donkey balls. But, when I try to explain to my child that this is a lesson in responsibility, and she screams NO IT ISN'T. Well, little missy you just earned yourself another day.

Did some changing

I got a comment from a reader Jadilina saying that the white on black was too hard to read. I'm still not 100% this wasn't really Pam disguising herself. Hmmm was it Pam? Fess up! I needed to change it around anyway. I put that as my template just because I was frustrated one day trying to fix it, and just left it like that out of laziness. I STILL hate what I have, but since Blogger changed a bunch of stuff, I can't figure it out. So, brown it is. Woohoo. Can you hear the excitment in my voice?

It is like a 100 degrees out there right now, and I have to go to the store. Which sucks. I have to get some cheese and crackers for our Girl Scouts thingy thing tonight. Aislinn will get some patches and stuff. I'm excited for her. Gotta make sure to bring my camera for sure! I don't know how many she is getting, but if she gets one I'll be happy for her. She started late, so she won't get as many as the other girls, but hey! That's ok.

Yesterday, Jonny and I had playgroup and we had a good time. I am having a lot of fun with this group. Very relaxed, and chatty group of women. One lady has a pool and we swam and snacked. I stayed on my LC plan.

Speaking of low carb. I am no longer going to obsessivel count carbs. It's freaking me out, and I'm just going to EAT. That is how I lost in the beginning.

Right now I'm just laying around nd doing a whole lot of nothing.

Mama makes it better

So, I've been doing my low carb thing, and for the most part enjoying the HELL out of it. I really am. I am eating things I usually can't eat with any other weight loss program. Chicken wings anyone? Mmmm Tony makes the BEST chicken wings. Don't get me wrong, I do miss certain things. Like ketchup. I'd love to slather some ALL over my eggs. Oh and IHOP is having their Pancakes across America promotion. What does that mean? It means I spend a lot of time trying to convince myself that I REALLY don't want carrot cake pancakes with cream cheese icing. No REALLY I DON'T I SWEAR IT! Oooh my tummy just growled.

Although the food is awesome, and I enjoy it, I've only lost seven pounds. I read about people who do low carb who lose like 12 lbs in the first WEEK. Why can't I be that kind of person? I've been kind of upset about it. I've started obsessively logging my food intake on www.fitday.com. I've calculated some formula I found, and have tried to eat that much in food, since that is supposed to be the best for weight loss when low carbing. I've stopped eating as much cheese, and no more nuts. Becuase I ONLY lost SEVEN measly, stinking pounds. I've peed on almost fifty ketone sticks in almost three weeks. Since getting in ketosis I have remained in ketosis, so why I need to constantly need to pee on the sticks for reassurance is beyond me.

I called my mom today, and started to boohoo to her about how I've been doing this almost a month and only managed to lose sniff sniff seven measly, stinking pounds. Yet, she saw it differently. She saw it as I lost SEVEN WHOLE POUNDS GONE FOR GOOD. She made me feel good and PROUD that I lost those seven pounds.

I got to thinking, and though I started on the 15th, I had a few falste starts. I had a carbofest on the 24th when we went to the Strawberry festival that included a cheesesteak, two beef and cheddars and a large order of potato bites from Arby's annnd some regular soda. Then I had some chips a few days later. When I finally got "serious" I had issues with regulating my cheese, and almonds. So, I guess seven pounds after THAT is a good thing. It jsut seems like I've been stucking seven lbs forever. Ok like a week.

My morning routine

Wake up the FIRST time the alarm goes off for Tony, and thank the stars that it's HIS alarm and not mine.
Wake up when my alarm goes off
Contemplate for half a second on hitting the snooze, choose not to.
Lay there for three minutes exactly
Get up, yell at Aislinn to get up on my way to tinkle
Tinkle
Yell at Aislinn to get up on my way downstairs
Get downstairs and try really hard NOT to have conversations with Tony
Yell up the stairs for Aisy to get up
Stand on scale even though I said I was only going to do it once a week
Depending on scale, I either heave sigh or smile. Lately..smile
Take my blood sugar
Yell at Aislinn to GET HER BUTT DOWNSTAIRS THIS INSTANT
Pour coffee into cup
Argue with Aislinn that YES I did wake her up several times
Put Splenda in coffee
Ask Aislinn what she wants for breakfast
Put cream in my coffee
Ask Aislinn AGAIN what she wants for breakfast
Take a sip
Yell at Ais that it's now 7:15 and she had better pick something for breakfast!
Get Aislinn her bfast even though she is more than capable
prod her to eat
prod her to eat
prod her to eat
Trying hard not yell
Dancing from foot to foot nervously as the clock ticks toward 7:30 and she's taken ONE bite of cereal.
Snatch food bowl away as she cries about how HUNGRY she is
Try really hard not to bang head on wall
Get her up the stairs to brush her teeth
After five minutes yelling at her to HURRY UP and get down here
Watch as she stretches her shirt out to some unrecognizable form
Try not to scream that she is going to be late
Watches as she brushes her hair
Send her out the door with a kiss and wave

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Our new couch comes today and I'm so excited! My legs hurt from walking for hours in my flip flops. Its crazy.

Summer is here

Summer is here, and you know what? I haven't been feeling THAT down on an everyday basis. I have noticed that I moodier and I get the boohoo poor mes more often, and I am snapping at the kids more. It's almost like I have pms... just all the time. Which is better than murderous rage. I'm sure Tony will agree.

The true test on whether or not my depression will get worse is now. We've been lucky only having the AC on a few days here and there. But, the nineties are here to stay. I've been a little obsessive over the AC, which is another sign of my condition. Where I lay awake at night worrying about whether we're big ole pussies for keeping the AC at 77 during the day and 75 at night, and really should we keep it at 80, even though the thought makes me want to vomit. Our upstairs can get five degrees higher than downstairs, so the thought of sleeping in 85 degree heat. Barf. If I'm not worried about that, I'm concerned about keeping the upstairs cool at night, and if by closing those two vents downstairs, will that keep the AC running all night and will I wake up to a pool of water and a frozen AC? I literally could NOT go to sleep last night until after 1 am, laying there wondering and worrying about the damn AC.

My low carbing is going good. I have found some great sites, and it's SO refreshing to see some SKINNY ASS people who are LCing. Marathon runners, and body builders. Especially when they started out fat. I am really enjoying it. Right now I'm eating my one minute muffin. Wait? Did I just say muffin? That can't be low carb. Well it is, and because I'm low carbing I get to eat it with an ass ton of butter. Lucky me. I love it. It's so easy to make! I make it from flax meal. I mix all the ingredients in a cup, stir it, and microwave it for one minute. Out pops a delicious and hot muffin. It's hard not to just eat them all day long. I have one.

My blood sugar has been MUCH better. It was high this morning. My fasting was 184! But, I didn't eat a snack before bed last night. I usually ALWAYS eat a snack right before bed. Something high in fat. But, last night I just didn't feel like eating, and low and behold high blood sugar. So I need to eat more! FAT! Yes! Life is good. I have lost about seven lbs and I've been doing this for about 3 weeks. Not that great, because on 1 day I cheated, and two because a few days ago, I wasn't interested in food, and didn't eat enough so I think my body held onto everything. But, I can't deny the fact that I am now feeling skinnier, I have WAY more energy, and the cravings are gone. Even though I have a lot of fast food options at my disposal, I'd rather eat at home. Also, added bonus... I am now regular again. Woohoo!