I've been putting off the blog for awhile. I don't know why. Mainly I usually only have negative things to write about and that gets boring after awhile.
I guess the big news is that on our way home from our camping trip we got a call saying my sister in law had been air evacuated from a car accident and taken to the hospital. Most of you that read this know the details, but for those that don't I'll go on.
This happened Sunday around five. She has a broken collar bone, broke pelvic bone, it is broken on both sides, broken ribs, fractured the ball at the end of her spine, air bubble in her lung, and staples in her head. Also her hip may be fractured, but they're not sure, if it is, it's really small and not that serious.
It has been an exhausting few days for all of us. I've been surprised with my response to all this. Shannon and I are sister in laws, but not really anything more than that. We used to be close, but life situations have kind of led us down different paths. When we get together, we always have a good time, but really we're not nearly as close as we once were and it doesn't seem to bother either of us. We love each other, and that's that. I've spent a lot of time up there, trying to help her the best I can. I just want to BE there for her. I don't know. Maybe it's the mom in me. Tony pointed out that I have spent more time up there than anyone else. I disagree, but I think he appreciates it. She says she has too. But, for me its not even about that you know? I just don't want her to be alone I guess. I wouldn'twant to be alone. Plus, the nurses and the doctors try to talk to her, and she can't remember anything. I don't want some vital piece of info to fall through the cracks because she can't remember. At first she needed constant care. She couldn't eat or drink on her own, because she could barely move, or stay awake long enough. She needed someone to wake her up, and force her to eat or drink, now that she has moved around, and gotten off the morphine she is more alert. Everyone has kind of backed off by now, and I feel bad for her. I don't know. Like I'm not going today and I wracked with guilt. I'm just TIRED you know? The kids have been shuttled to and fro, and I've been sitting in those uncomfortable chairs, eating crap food for three days now. I just need some rest. Yet I still feel bad.
In all this of course there is drama. Tony and Shannons mom. What a piece of shit she is. Bascially, she realized that she can't get any attention from this for herself anymore, so she has taken the role of "visitor" coming up for a short visit everyday. She makes me physically ill. Even the second day she was off all day, and chose to not come up there until four oclock for about two hours. She left the responsibility to the rest of us. Oh well, shannon doesn't want her up there anyway. So Ig uess it just works out. Karen just usually sits there bitching at Shannon about this that and the other thing, and sits in there with her vomitus benevolent smile on her face like she's the Sainted Mother or some shit. I literally want to stick a tongue depressor right in her eye when I see that smile. The smile says "Yes, I am the mother of a broken hurt child, come give me sympathy, I am being strong in the face of adversity for the hour and half I am up here, which mostly is spent outside smoking and talking shit about the other daughter who put me up when I had no place else to go"
Honestly, after this little episode which has a lot more to it than just the not giving a shit about Shannon, I wouldn't be surprised if all three kids just write her off. Even Gracie (the kids step mom who they all adore) who is very against writing family off, who think everyone has a bit of good in them, has agreed. Basically, she has chosen her cheating husband over her kids once again. Like she did when they first got together. She couldn't get enough of us when they split, but now that he is back in the picture (funny enough back in the picture after her first paycheck came in) she can't be bothered anymore. She is treating Denise and her household like crap, when they couldnt afford to take her in, but they did anyway.
So, today is a day for me. I'm going to do some light (very light) cleaning around here, it doesn't need much since we've been here to sleep and thats about it since our trip. I'm just going to veg out today. I do have to take Aislinn to get some school shoes, so I need all the energy I can get. Tonight is her open house to meet the teacher, so we'll go up there and take what we were able to FIND for her supply list. We couldn't find any pens, pencils or paper last night when we went shopping. I have laundry to do too.